For now...

This is so true, and as you know Harry Potter is one of my most favourite things in the world. (Blog coming soon from a whole HP day we had a few weeks ago)

So my last blog was in July... although my radio silence has only really been on here, I haven't shared everything on my Instagram or Facebook pages. 

If you don't follow me on social media, in September 2018 I went on a family holiday to Turkey and Jack proposed. 

Amazing news right?

I thought so too.

We had a great holiday and I was on such a massive high that I was not prepared for what was coming next. 

The week after we returned, after celebratory drinks, meals and such, I returned to work. The day-to-day normality of my life seemed to hit me like a truck.

I spiralled downwards and this led to me being signed off work for nearly 3 months. 

During that 3 months, I didn't want to do anything or see anyone. Bed was my friend... (luckily we have an awesome bed!)

I don't remember much through out this time as I think my mind has blocked most of it out as a blur of Drs appointments, counselling, medication changes and more. 

Jack was my rock through out this period, as were my family and his. I know it is so hard being supportive when nothing makes sense and when it is all so confusing, but they all did a great job.

Work were amazing and really helped me by asking me how they could help me come back to work without forcing any pressure onto me.

I went back to work mid December on a phased return, meaning that I worked two half days a week, increasing this week by week. 

This really helped me have something to focus on, without putting too much pressure on myself. 

I finally went back to work full time late February, which seems like forever ago, but having a job I love really helped me and my mental health. 

Were now 4 and a bit months on from going back full time, and I'm not going to sit here and say to you that I'm all better, that would be a lie, and I don't think anyone with mental health problems would ever be able to say that, but it's a lot more manageable. 

I am on strong ass tablets daily, and my body definitely knows when I haven't taken it. It helps and I don't want to be on them forever, but for now, it's what I need. 

Being able to manage my bad days is getting easier, especially with the help of a couple of good friends who also have similar issues. We help each other rationalise our mind farts. 

So, for now... I'm ok. I'm getting into wedding planning, have finally finished my CIM course after having to defer it whilst I was off, and am feeling more and more confident in my job role. 

Hope you are all well, and I will be posting a lot of what I have been up to over the last few months. 

Much Love,

Things I Have Been Loving/Catch up

Hello one and all,

This was going to be a post about everything I'm loving at the moment... which I guess it still kind of is... but not in the traditional sense.

• I am currently loving being super busy at work. Crazy I know, but after taking 29 years to find a job I love, to be super busy and still happy means a lot. Although it has meant me being extremely absent from all things blogging, which does make me sad. 

• I am loving spending what little time I do have with my friends and family. I have been busy at work meaning that when I get home I generally want to eat and sleep, but on the rare occasion that I don't I try and find time to see people I love. 

• I have enjoyed taking in the moments rather than grabbing my phone at every given opportunity. Although I do have some pictures of the last couple of months I have been absent that I do quite like. 

• Unfortunately, my anxiety has not been great recently. I have had some super down days which is not fun, but I still managed to get up and out of bed and in to work of which I am super proud of myself for. I think this is why I knew I had to come back today as it really helps my anxiety to get all my thoughts down in one place whether that be a catch up like this, an FOTD,  or a review etc. 

• I am happy that my office has been on dress down for the last month or so as I am much more comfortable in my own clothes although it does mean I stress every morning wondering what the hell to wear when it is 100 degrees outside and then like a freezer inside!

• Logan also went missing for nearly 3 days a couple of weeks ago which was horrendous. Luckily she came back and is absolutely fine!

We have also booked our summer holiday for September, going back to Turkey surprise surprise! This time myself and Jack are going with my mum and step dad which will be lovely. The countdown is on! (I will try and so some vlogging while we are there too!)

I have so much stuff to review at the moment so really need to find some time to do this for you. That is my mission for August.

I'm sorry I've been a bad blogger, but I am back and ready for the Summer!

Much Love as Always,

The Old English Company Haul | It Arrived!

So, for those of you who read this rambling regularly, you may have seen a sponsored post I did a few weeks ago for The Old English Company, if not, you can find it here.

How cute is this...and so true!

They were super lovely and gifted me some bits and pieces that I was able to choose and it's now arrived so I wanted to show you how gorgeous everything is!

First up, as the post was about their (now finished) Enamel Pin competition, I purchased this little one. It's white and rose gold, simply saying 'Start Somewhere' which I love.

Next up I brought this print for when we finally buy a house and I potentially have a desk at home. I loved the quote and I love the marble effect of the background. Give me alllll the pizza please!
But not on a Monday... that's the day we all go on a diet right?

Then I chose these lush coasters, mainly as I thought they would be cute as gifts for those people who you want to give more than a card on their birthday but not anything big... more a gesture present.

I also picked all the cards! I love being organised with cards, and regularly stock up for a few months or even the year! I loved their card selection so picked a few new baby ones as well as wedding cards and then some cards for just because.

Lastly, as I am such a notebook hoarder, I couldn't not pick up a notebook! This is a gorgeous dove grey and says Just own it... which I need to do more often. I also got a planner in a darker grey saying you can, and you will... also a perfect quote for me when I'm having a down doubting day. Check out that alliteration!

I would definitely recommend the company, they were a dream to work with and their products are genuinely really lovely.

I will definitely be purchasing some more bits and pieces now I have seen how good their quality is too.

Let me know if you have brought from here before... what did you get?

Much Love,