We're Engaged!

So if you read my last blog, you know that I've had a lot going on recently but I haven't told you about the fact that in September last year, Jack proposed!

We are coming up to a year of being engaged which seems crazy but also, so much has happened in that time.

The Story:

So it goes like this... we were in Turkey on a family holiday with my mum and step dad staying at my grandma's apartment in Didim, Altinkum which is about an hour and a half from Bodrum airport.

A couple of days in we decided to have date nights separately and then meet back up afterwards for drinks.


Myself and Jack chose our favourite restaurant, Key-f at Didim marina.

The food there is amazing and I had Sea bass whilst Jack had steak, but he was acting so moody. This annoyed me as we hadn't had a date night in months! (Little did I know he was nervous - bless him!)


After we finished our meals, I ordered my favourite desert and some more drinks whilst Jack went to the toilet.

When he got back, he started talking about our wedding - which was not unusual as we spoke about it often - then the next thing I knew he was next to on one knee with a ring box.

Of course I said YES! and the restaurant cheered while the waiters brought over champagne along with my chocolate soufflé that I couldn't eat because I was still in shock!


The Ring:

To start with I thought, my goodness it is huge but as soon as I put it on I knew it was perfect for me.

Everyone has said how fitting it is for me and I completely agree!

He had it made by my favourite jeweller in Didim, Ozcan which meant so much to me. I did need to have it resized as it was slightly too big.

I love it and can't believe how well he did. Spot on in fact - especially when he had zero help from me!

It is rose gold, with an Amethyst stone in the centre. Purple is my favourite colour but amethyst is also both of our birth stones.

The stone is surrounded. by bling which also then goes down the sides in three rows.

It is not a dainty ring by any means, but neither am I.

I wear quite chunky jewellery as you can see from the other rings in the picture.

There are loads of pictures on my instagram if you want to see more/better pics.

And Then:




If that wasn't enough, we then went to meet my parents and obviously they already knew! I wanted to ring Jack's mum but couldn't hear her and my mum told me to turn around - there were Jack's parents!

How they all kept it all a secret I have NO clue. Especially as we live with Jack's parents and I work with my mum and step dad, so I was super impressed and still am.

It was so nice to be able to celebrate with them all being there.

We also spent a little while FaceTiming some of our friends - mainly mine as his already knew!






Now:

Nearly a year on and wedding planning is definitely underway with the church, venue, photographer and videographer booked.

Wedding party have all been chosen and I have allllll the spreadsheets for each section of the planning. What we have booked and what is yet to be booked or organised.

I'm loving wedding planning and have found a new love - Pinterest - I have found sooo many things I love and want to try for the wedding, our future house and everything in between.

Keep your eyes peeled for more wedding content!

Much Love as Always,

For now...

This is so true, and as you know Harry Potter is one of my most favourite things in the world. (Blog coming soon from a whole HP day we had a few weeks ago)

So my last blog was in July... although my radio silence has only really been on here, I haven't shared everything on my Instagram or Facebook pages. 

If you don't follow me on social media, in September 2018 I went on a family holiday to Turkey and Jack proposed. 

Amazing news right?

I thought so too.

We had a great holiday and I was on such a massive high that I was not prepared for what was coming next. 

The week after we returned, after celebratory drinks, meals and such, I returned to work. The day-to-day normality of my life seemed to hit me like a truck.

I spiralled downwards and this led to me being signed off work for nearly 3 months. 

During that 3 months, I didn't want to do anything or see anyone. Bed was my friend... (luckily we have an awesome bed!)

I don't remember much through out this time as I think my mind has blocked most of it out as a blur of Drs appointments, counselling, medication changes and more. 

Jack was my rock through out this period, as were my family and his. I know it is so hard being supportive when nothing makes sense and when it is all so confusing, but they all did a great job.

Work were amazing and really helped me by asking me how they could help me come back to work without forcing any pressure onto me.

I went back to work mid December on a phased return, meaning that I worked two half days a week, increasing this week by week. 

This really helped me have something to focus on, without putting too much pressure on myself. 

I finally went back to work full time late February, which seems like forever ago, but having a job I love really helped me and my mental health. 

Were now 4 and a bit months on from going back full time, and I'm not going to sit here and say to you that I'm all better, that would be a lie, and I don't think anyone with mental health problems would ever be able to say that, but it's a lot more manageable. 

I am on strong ass tablets daily, and my body definitely knows when I haven't taken it. It helps and I don't want to be on them forever, but for now, it's what I need. 

Being able to manage my bad days is getting easier, especially with the help of a couple of good friends who also have similar issues. We help each other rationalise our mind farts. 

So, for now... I'm ok. I'm getting into wedding planning, have finally finished my CIM course after having to defer it whilst I was off, and am feeling more and more confident in my job role. 

Hope you are all well, and I will be posting a lot of what I have been up to over the last few months. 

Much Love,

Things I Have Been Loving/Catch up

Hello one and all,

This was going to be a post about everything I'm loving at the moment... which I guess it still kind of is... but not in the traditional sense.

• I am currently loving being super busy at work. Crazy I know, but after taking 29 years to find a job I love, to be super busy and still happy means a lot. Although it has meant me being extremely absent from all things blogging, which does make me sad. 

• I am loving spending what little time I do have with my friends and family. I have been busy at work meaning that when I get home I generally want to eat and sleep, but on the rare occasion that I don't I try and find time to see people I love. 

• I have enjoyed taking in the moments rather than grabbing my phone at every given opportunity. Although I do have some pictures of the last couple of months I have been absent that I do quite like. 

• Unfortunately, my anxiety has not been great recently. I have had some super down days which is not fun, but I still managed to get up and out of bed and in to work of which I am super proud of myself for. I think this is why I knew I had to come back today as it really helps my anxiety to get all my thoughts down in one place whether that be a catch up like this, an FOTD,  or a review etc. 

• I am happy that my office has been on dress down for the last month or so as I am much more comfortable in my own clothes although it does mean I stress every morning wondering what the hell to wear when it is 100 degrees outside and then like a freezer inside!

• Logan also went missing for nearly 3 days a couple of weeks ago which was horrendous. Luckily she came back and is absolutely fine!

We have also booked our summer holiday for September, going back to Turkey surprise surprise! This time myself and Jack are going with my mum and step dad which will be lovely. The countdown is on! (I will try and so some vlogging while we are there too!)

I have so much stuff to review at the moment so really need to find some time to do this for you. That is my mission for August.

I'm sorry I've been a bad blogger, but I am back and ready for the Summer!

Much Love as Always,