This is so true, and as you know Harry Potter is one of my most favourite things in the world. (Blog coming soon from a whole HP day we had a few weeks ago)
So my last blog was in July... although my radio silence has only really been on here, I haven't shared everything on my Instagram or Facebook pages.
If you don't follow me on social media, in September 2018 I went on a family holiday to Turkey and Jack proposed.
Amazing news right?
I thought so too.
We had a great holiday and I was on such a massive high that I was not prepared for what was coming next.
The week after we returned, after celebratory drinks, meals and such, I returned to work. The day-to-day normality of my life seemed to hit me like a truck.
I spiralled downwards and this led to me being signed off work for nearly 3 months.
I spiralled downwards and this led to me being signed off work for nearly 3 months.
During that 3 months, I didn't want to do anything or see anyone. Bed was my friend... (luckily we have an awesome bed!)
I don't remember much through out this time as I think my mind has blocked most of it out as a blur of Drs appointments, counselling, medication changes and more.
Jack was my rock through out this period, as were my family and his. I know it is so hard being supportive when nothing makes sense and when it is all so confusing, but they all did a great job.
Work were amazing and really helped me by asking me how they could help me come back to work without forcing any pressure onto me.
I went back to work mid December on a phased return, meaning that I worked two half days a week, increasing this week by week.
This really helped me have something to focus on, without putting too much pressure on myself.
I finally went back to work full time late February, which seems like forever ago, but having a job I love really helped me and my mental health.
Were now 4 and a bit months on from going back full time, and I'm not going to sit here and say to you that I'm all better, that would be a lie, and I don't think anyone with mental health problems would ever be able to say that, but it's a lot more manageable.
I am on strong ass tablets daily, and my body definitely knows when I haven't taken it. It helps and I don't want to be on them forever, but for now, it's what I need.
Being able to manage my bad days is getting easier, especially with the help of a couple of good friends who also have similar issues. We help each other rationalise our mind farts.
So, for now... I'm ok. I'm getting into wedding planning, have finally finished my CIM course after having to defer it whilst I was off, and am feeling more and more confident in my job role.
Hope you are all well, and I will be posting a lot of what I have been up to over the last few months.
Much Love,
